I've been thinking about babies so much it makes my head hurt! I want to be pregnant more than anything at the moment! (Ok, maybe not exactly true, but close!)
I will be really honest and say that I have been jealous on more than one occasion of late. I am truly happy for those of you who have just had or are going to have a baby. I just want that same happiness... I really never thought I would deal with infertility, I have always been healthy and never really had any problems, case and point... I got pregnant with our first child four short months after we were married. I had her a month after our first anniversary, we had our last child birthing class on our anniversary. So I just assumed that the next child would come easily. Boy was I wrong....
It is frustrating, devastating, heart wrenching, and unbearable at times. I don't know why I have to walk this road, but I know the One who does. I am asking for prayer for myself to make this path clear and that I would be able to have another healthy child. I feel like Hannah, pouring my soul out before the Lord. I wish the text in 1 Samuel would have said exactly how long she prayed for Samuel. I think just waiting is so hard, I have never been good with patience. Maybe that is what I have to learn before my prayer is answered.
So if I may state it again, I am asking for prayer in this matter. All of you mamas who have been where I am right now lift me up to the ear of our Father after you read this. I appreciate all of your support and love!
Thanks a bunch!
Wen
" There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens"
Ecclesiastes 3:1
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